free flowing stream of consciousness, with lousy form. sorry.

I honestly don't know if I should have ever started tattooing. I mean, I love it, and I love doing art every day, but I don't have the kind of networking personality it takes to get as far as possible. and I'm not tough enough. There was a graduate program that I was trying to get into that required the endorsement of 3 teachers, and there was only one that I had become close enough to to get a recommendation from. that should have told me right there. I suppose it could be looked at that I was disrespectful because I didn't go get pieces from all the artists I admire.  that is the kind of networking that is standard in the industry.I was just completely consumed with my personal problems, and embarrassed by them. I also had a terrible crystal meth problem. I was, and still am, constantly in survival mode. thankfully, there are one or two people in the world besides my family, that provide me with support.